Feargonomics

Fear running through my veins
Fear dominates the reigns
When I bow down to you
Its 'coz of my fear of losing you
When I smile even in pain
Its my fear of you walking away in vain
When I let you dominate my game
It was only my fear of calling each other names
When in all adversities I put up a brave face
It was only for my fear of being replaced.

As I have known all along
I am infected by a replaying fear song
Eating away my soul,it shows no outer effects
But inside it just creates the cracks and reflects the defects
The soul trying to ward off fears
Of changing fast all of life's gears
Of feeling let down,broken,almost shattered
Of having my fighting spirit completely battered
Of having myself shut up, listen and waste all I've known and gathered
All the ideas and concepts I've fathered.

Fear screams on in my head forever
It is noisy, it is clever
All it has to do is show me
A glimpse of the negative things for me
And I'll curl in  or fly around like a banshee
Thinking that now I'm hopeless with no one to hear my plea.

Countless times I have replaced my fears
But it always comes around and whispers in my ears
'You can run,you can hide
But you still cannot survive
For without me,you'll have no will
You'll do nothing without my chill..'

I screamed back into his ear,
'You will not conquer me, I will not fear
Bowed to you,too many times I have
Off you go now, I clear you out from mind,soul,all else I have,
You might still come and sit on my shoulder now,
But I don't know you,even if you reach me somehow,
No more a slaveof your whims I'll be
I'll move so fast ,you won't be able to catch up to me.'